So, I’m now at a time in my life where you take a little “stock” of what you (me in this case) of what I’ve achieved and tallied the successes I’ve celebrated.
Completely heightened by a recent 25 year High School reunion that I did attend.
The current Premier of Victoria, Daniel Andrews was from my High School and what I’ve managed to achieve in life doesn’t add up to much at all. Except to say I have survived.
I know I’ve yet to divulge what exactly my medical condition is or my disability and that has been on purpose.
Rest assured all shall soon be revealed.
So, stocktake, I guess I’ve always been a bit of a free-spirit. I had ideas of how I thought light might go, but perhaps not how I would get there.
When I was younger, I thought life would just naturally fall into place and perhaps this was what was meant to happen because I’m still here!
I honestly thought I’d be married with kids “living the dream” by 30.
I wanted to have my own business “something” in the realm of Interior Decoration.
I studied something else. I studied the one thing that would have been better if I’d been a gay man! Two things ‘I’m not!’ I studied Visual merchandising (Window dressing).
It did teach me, I would not cut it with technical drawing.
And the whole married with kid’s thing, well in recent years, I’ve learnt that my medical condition, pregnancy could have been deadly.
Alas, I also did not meet my ‘husband’.
Here’s hoping – yet!
Friends of yesteryear and I would joke – he was lost!
But anyway, not doing this blog to find a husband…
But still assessing what the rest of life should include…
I do not work. All the things I have done for income in the past, I can no longer do and the NDIS would see us all being able to work again.
It’s a nice dream however, I struggle to get out of bed every day! And I struggle to stay out of bed every day!
The aim every day is to make it to the end of the day and not fall over! To still feel the parts of my body I make work that only work because I make them…
And to make it to the next day!
Life seems small these days!
I get to appointments that help me live. I create social connections at these appointments because over time they have gotten to know me and who I used to be…
But rest assured if I didn’t pay for services at those places, they would not have the time to be ‘friends’ with me outside of “work”.
So to the future, it’s a work in progress and please join me on the adventure…